Healing

Question 26: How do you feel about your scars and past mistakes?

Answer:

I’ve learnt so much from them but if I were to sit down and really think over the past 4 years, I would cry incessantly.

Question 27: What is the most affected part of your body due to self harm? How does it make you feel?

Answer:

Probably my stomach. I [used to] do so much to numb the pain in terms of alcohol and any pills containing paracetamol to cover up the hunger pains, because I don’t eat when I’m stressed, anxious, worried or sad.

Question 28: Why is recovery important to you?

Answer:

Honestly, I am not brave enough to end it all for real. So, if I’m going to do this living thing, I might as well live my best life. My journey to [some semblance of] recovery so far has helped me become a more positive person (except when it comes to love, obviously). And all I really want is to shine through the dark cloud.

xo

Perseverance & Self-Love

Question 16: Biggest accomplishment this year (2016)?

Answer:

I didn’t give up on myself and I am where I am: in a much better space than I have ever been. I’ve had multiple moments when I truly wanted to end it all, but somehow I persevered, and to me, that is my biggest accomplishment of 2016.

Question 17: What is a self-love tip that keeps you going?

Answer:

I should treat myself the way I want other people to treat me, and therefore I should always look out for myself first, because I have to be okay before I can be anything to anyone else.

Question 18: What fills you up with love?

Answer:

Besides food, I really don’t know. I have been quite numb to love lately.

xo